Saturday, February 27, 2010
alone again....
haiz..
tonight..seems seriously long
tomorrow seems so far away..
im tired
fcking tired...
but i cant
seem to fall asleep
fever this morning
havent ok
shit
my heart feels like
its been
pierced by a thousand arrows..
it hurts
usually at nite...is u pei me de
now..
without u here
i
feel so alone..
like
im the only person on this planet...
the feeling sucks..
didnt sleep ytd
cried for 18 hours straight..
feel so...dead..
i wanna go back..to the way we were before...
7:52 AM
Friday, February 26, 2010
its over...its really all over..
but..
should i..
continue waiting..
i dont know
the tears wont stop
my heart is broken
into a million fragments...
and
i dont know..
if i can fix them back
i can tell myself
that i'll still wait
i can wait
but
after 3 years..
will u be still willing
to want me back
i wanted to be yours..
i gave u everything i could
was it
nt enough
to make u stay?..
my vision's blurry..
idk why
is it coz of the tears..
or is it
my own imagination
my world's falling apart
it'll take 2 more years to completely fall
but
idk if u could
but
u
can help me rebuild it..
i'll be ur gan
i'll be ur kor
i'll continue to be there for u
but
i still luv u...
u broke my heart 3 times
idk why
i still luv u..
i think im stupid
my heart...
was taken by you
broken by you
though i dont blame u..
it's in pieces coz of u..
but i dont mind..
i dun hate u..
i dun detest u the least..
i blame myself..
for nt being able
to keep u..
thank you...
for the 22 days of happiness you gave me..
thank you...
i knw
u dun wan me
give u stress by waiting for u
but
i've gt no choice
my heart's broken
but my brain wont let the matter rest...
it wants me.
to keep my promise and wait..
i promised..
i dun wanna sleep tonight...
calling ben at nite..
today seemed so long
and my eye was twitching in the morning..
this must be the "bad thing" that was about to happen to me..
im sry
i wasnt able to keep u..
if i was able to
maybe
the outcome
wouldnt be like this..
im so sorry...
im so sorry...
12:26 AM
Saturday, February 20, 2010
erm..
sry bout my bad mood today uh
just nw someone say he wan me to fck out of his life
k lor
i fck outta ur life..
i dun even wan to be in ur dog life lor pls..
sry to eu especially..
just nw i knw my attitude bit bad lar
sry kay? dun angry uh..
kay today can't go out -.- shit...
nvm i duwan go out anyway
so fking hot la..
nw playing wahjong , drinking lemon tea, listening songs, and on msn
omg i still feel bad sia...
shouldnt vent anger on other ppl
shit
sry..
fck it -.-
maybe later go play bball...
zz now at home in my room...alone...
ah sien ah!
i wanna go out~!~!~!~!!~!~!~!~~!!!~!~!
D:
k nvm...done posting...bye..
11:30 PM
Friday, February 19, 2010
lols i forgot to post yesterday nite :X blame my bad memory lor...
then this afternoon i just remembered :]
k ytd...
schooled then 11 30 gt the lao yu sheng..
lols i go throw the thing at my fren hand...omg he was screaming? o-o
whole class laugh like shit
lol then gt cca
sec1's came in o-o
i wanted teach...but too many people crowd around them ler XD
so slack lor..
sec2 i slept half of the lesson coz tired
then other half listen to teacher talk
omg i suan teacher sia
then during sec 3 and 4 session cher spent half an hour scolding some graduate de senior o-o
then tat senior came back during the lesson
cher face very funny sia o-o
like wan to scold her then dun wan scold her like tat
lols then practise lor...
then went dinner wif miaoshan,xiner, derrick and celia..
talk till almost 7
reach home kena scold -.-
my bag heavy kena scold..
i nvr tell them wait kena scold
then i go get biscuits and lock myself in the room lor
then smsed wan leng till she offed her phone .__.
then its just me and the laptop -.-
then 12 then i slept...this morning 11 wake up sia...smsed wan leng again o-o
she went bball!!!nvr tell me go!!!
arghhh
anyways...
1 mre thing for today :]
HAPPY 9TH month sm :DD
lols
tomorrow if i can get someone go wif me bugis then i'll get something for u lor :]
kk....now...idk wad to do xD
hahas finished posting..nth to post ler
bb~~
9:03 PM
Sunday, February 14, 2010
haiz..today valentine's day...but i'm alone..how sad huh?..hahas..
whole day...slacking and listening song lor...
i miss the days wif u..
every minute, every second,all the memories are all coming back..
it hurts
but its worth it..
i wish
we could
start all over again
if that's possible..
maybe
its nt possible now
but maybe
in the future..
i dun wan..
to end like this..
i miss you...
8:30 AM
Saturday, February 13, 2010
alone on valentine day...how bad can this day get sia...
haiz...sien liao lor today.....happy valentine's day to "you" eh... miss u..
aint happy for whole of today...cant smile idk why...trying my best though...haiz....dun feel like posting...
i miss u...
8:02 AM
Thursday, February 11, 2010
tomorrow's the performance..
tch...not anxious at all lor -.- 3 songs all so simple de..
k la...lets see what i did today
went to school
had a headache during chemistry and dnt..then dnt i go take panadol tat why i during guzheng im fine ler..
slacked during guzheng..
4pm release...then went to mac wif weishiong, wan leng,wei xuan, shu mei ,jiamin and qiuyi..
me and her were like...sms-ing half the time at mac..lols
then accompany her home and went home...sien 10 i hav to sleep or else tomorrow cant wake up
lols...now thinking of that time...cant say out uh..
but really enjoy myself tat day..
wa...really feel like crying but idk why i feel happy oso..
weird feeling eh..
k nvm i lazy post ler
byes..
5:10 AM
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
i went to ur class during lunch break today..
spent like 5 mins...acting stupid in front of teacher..
just so i could see you..saw you..that's good enough for me :]
wonder why..u're just like my favourite brand of...chocolate..thinking of you makes me want you..when i know i dun have you..i'll get sad..but at least...i still know...that you still hav feelings for me...idk why
when i think of you...when im alone...i always will smile..when i see u...i'll smile...even if my mood tat day is damn lousy..i'll still smile..even if it kills me..i'll smile..
i did promise eu tat i'll change myself..for u..
but i really really hate competition..especially wif someone i thought was my friend..i hate snatching things from my friend...but if its a relationship...i wont hold back
my fren told me to let go of u..
i didnt
i wont
even if u choose someone else..
i'll wait..
until the day..
u accept me..
i know tat day will come..
it's coming..
watch me change myself
watch me...
but..
dont leave me..
i need you..
or i wont hav the motivation to carry on what i'm doing..
even if i ignore u sometimes...
dont get upset
dont get angry
dont be confused tat i dont luv u anymore..
maybe sometimes i just didnt see
but most of the time
99.99999999999999999999999% of the time
i'll know if u're near me..if i walk past u without looking at u...then turn around after that
u'll notice..
that i'll be looking at u..
i just wan u to know..
i luv u..
and that's the fact..nobody can change..
i luv u.. :)
3:25 AM
Monday, February 1, 2010
yo o-o ok...bored..
today did nth much...gt chem test..test quite easy la..can pass...wed gt math test sia..sucker...
then after school went for cca...coach sec 2's o-o they nt bad ler lar..lols...
then sent her home...then go home lor o-o su fei they all win against naval base sia o-o
naval base kena thrash until..omg o-o
lols ok i now go slack... bye
4:53 AM
