Friday, July 31, 2009
to someone..i'm not gonna say who
you know why i'm angry?every single bloody blog post u make..its about him
every 2 sentences comfirm will come out his name de
u care about me de mah??i sms u in class then u oso never reply..i use his phone sms..u everytime reply
whats wrong wif u??if u really dun wanna reply me then get out of my life! even when i sms u in class..even if u reply..u in the blog..dun even dare mention that u sms me
then everytime u sms him then u put his bloody big name there
you got treat me as ur gan mah? no i shouldnt say gan
you got treat me as your FRIEND mah? i doubt so...evrything's about him..you dont know...u dunno i cried...u dunno the pain i suffered..no..not u dunno
is u dun CARE at all...ur whole mind only is him him him him him
i'm not worth two shits in your heart...maybe i should thank you..for making the worst impression of a person i thought was my friend...
i got enough of this..if your reading this..you fcking know who u are...im adapting myself to you..now YOU BETTER FCKING DO THE SAME
if your not gonna change...dont blame me..for leaving..
9:45 PM
i gt fcking enough of this..i'm frustrated..i'm tired of all this crap..i just wanna run away..to a place where no one can find me..to a place..where i can be alone..how come i feel ur drifting further and further from me oredi..last time our friendship was quite good..now...we're so cold to each other..why become like this..is it my fault?...why...i dont it to become like this...i wish i could turn back time
wish i could make things go back to just the way it was...but..i cant..since the day u met him..nothing else was the same anymore..nothing else would ever be the same..i know i'm still your fren..but can u trust me...can u put some faith in me?and most importantly..can u treat me like a friend whom u know can help...i dont wanna continue like this...it's either him or me....u know i've been sulking the whole week coz of what u said?u maybe dunno..but u freaking hurt me..alot...haiz..i really want u back by my side..i cant live without you no more...i didnt sleep for the past few nights...i lied to some people i going to sleep...i've been thinking bout how to solve this problem and how to apologize...but i can't find a way to do it...it's hard...for me....everything is weighing me down...fren problem...exams...homework..tuition homework..my injury..my...family...
pls...dun be like this...haiz...i'm broken and tired...i got nothing much left to say...and now..i'm crying(really)..
2:08 AM
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
today gt PE then my team vs ah boon de team..walao stupid kok leng go make my ankle sprain
dam pain sia i hav to walk slowly home
walao ei...tmd...but i tink still can go sku tomorrow lar..just cant walk too much
wa just nw gt 1 asshole he go walk idk how he walk sia
go walk then kick my right leg then nvr say sry
pain until i wan cry liao lar T-T
haiz i go eat liao...bb~
11:31 PM
lols today still ok la :P
i nvr bring math hw
ms joyce weird sia..say wan collect money
collect everybody's nvr collect mine -.-
FARHAN LOOKS 10 YEARS OLDER!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDD
some other betch in the red tie still looks like a betch -.-
lawls...i did the tsunami thingy..did the causes..havent print out though..i wan wait next week alison come back ask her give who..kns today so many absent
sha and sa absent(nt surprising) then xiao jun (she after school idk come back for wat sia) then syarafina (DDDD:)
lols..oh ya i wan collect hw for her de lor then asyura take ler ._. (awww) lols...
i think i now go cook 1st..freaking hungry..omg *bites sm* woops sorry :X
3:51 AM
Sunday, July 26, 2009
HAPPY 1ST WEEK WITH
SM~~!~!~~
YAY~
hahas :] now at david sentosa's house..he bought a new laptop D:
i wan 1 too T^T
lols ok i go find video to watch :]]
bb~
2:13 AM
Friday, July 24, 2009
happy 1st month to benson and wan ting.wish u 2 last long..benson better make it last long >_>
talked to benson ytd..had abit of a quarrerl but its ok ler..i'm expecting to be asked to call tonight ._.
not expecting any more...disappointments..
7:15 PM
haiz..to someone..i wanna say i'm sorry
but i dunno how..but 1st.. wanna tell some people some things
ollivia: mei rpely my my sms lehs ._.
wan ting: im sorry i was so irritating...
celia: i today walk fast coz i misunderstood something
benson: reply my tag for god damn sake -.-
ok..about today
today racial harmony sia..lols i whole day at notice board there decorating..tiring hav to keep cut then keep taking photo wif people lor
but omg the notice board was brilliant X-x
lols..anyways..after school i went up to 4th floor
look for abi jie and celia jie :3
took photo wif them then go home..walked celia to mrt station..jie sry i emo..i tot u and him..then i leave u 2 private time mah..so ya...sry...
after that i go home then i cabal lor ._.
lazy do homework now lar -.-
later going down for run...haiz..i growing fat omg X-x
ok gtg ler ciao
1:54 AM
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
posting this for..well...ollivia
mei..i know u sad or something..maybe angry at me for something but pls dun sad/angry oredi...i wanna tell u lots of stuff..but atm i cant...at least not here...i'll sms u..no prob but can u pls reply?and pls take care of urself. i can only help u spiritually..i can only tell u take wad and dun take wad..but i cant be there 24/7 take care of u..although i wish i could..pls take care of urself..i duwan everytime u like keep sad/sick(ok fine this cant be helped)/ enjoying pan(weird)
take care urself k?
5:01 AM
jie im sry...i mean it..i promise i wont do it again...just hope u forgive me...dun angry liao...i know i act very stupid these few days...ya i know..i'll try be more cheerful k...
pls hope u will forgive wat my attitude was and forgive me for it ok?
Di is very sorry...and i mean it...
todays when to sku then emo almost whole day...slacking...
lit class almost sleep
then i sms syahirah and ollivia and...wait is wan ting counted? lols ok wateva
maybe i post later..now wan go down play...ciao
3:32 AM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
walao today super pissed off
whats wrong
wif u man??i just want talk to her
oso cannot??u must
kup my call
meh?
ei i know she
ur dear but she sec4
leh cb! she's my
fren oso u know?u gt so much time
wif her i 1 week only call her less then once
i already 3 weeks never heard her voice
ler leh?u jealous
simi?not happy then come settle things la! i ask her she say
ok de leh.
wth is
ur freaking problem??
I ASK HER WHETHER CAN CALL SHE SAY YES LEH CBi know u 17 years old..3 years older
BIG DEAL WORSIA LA I SCARED SIA
17 YEARS OLD SIA~~ WAAAAAA!!!!!finish O level now go JC
WA PRO SIA WAAAAAA
ur hair nice WA BIG DEAL SIAAA
u cute BIG DEAL SIAAAA
I CARE AHHH???
4:56 AM
Saturday, July 18, 2009
HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO ABIGAIL JIE :]]
hahas..
i already sent u my wishes for u hahas :]
1st tyhing 1st..reply some tags 1st
gin jie: jie..i know u will...*hugs back*
wanting jie: jie no nid sorry..i know u busy...if u can spend abit of time ask me wat happen..im happy enough ler
reyna: i dun mean nothing...just...haiz..seriously..just think about it..i duwan u regret ur decisions...regreting is very sad de...
Yanshi jie: jie i know i shouldnt...but..sometimes i cant help it..hope u can online soon..
5:35 AM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
ben's outta the hospital..gratz..ben u lucky..everytime gt so many people care for u..i doubt she even knows i had a fever, puked up everything i ate for the past 2 days and had sleepless nights..u're so damn lucky..ha...and i got my leg injured today...some ass go throw the basketball(air pump alot de) at my leg..pain like fck..cannot walk properly..
benson why u always get everything u want..nobody gives me 100%..i cant hink of more than 10 people who really give me their all..ha...nvm..its expected..
Reply to some people(not tags)
ollivia: mei..take care urself..i tonite wont call u..u headache right...luv u lots :]
wan ting: jie..is nt i wanna be like this..haiz...jie..gimme support can?
tracy: jie..thx for giving me support...
gin jie: jie, jy for ur exams..i'll be fine..i got tracy and other frens here..but online oso can?
celia jie: haiz jie...i appreciate u try to cheer me up la..but sometimes it doesnt work..i'm sorry..
haiz...i go do other stuff..ciao..
4:10 AM
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
to someone, those whom i told u, u should know who, the person who it is, u know who u are..i just wanna say this to you..after this..i'll get over it, i won't look for you..anymore
You gave me no options...you just walked away..*sigh*..i gt nothing more to say to you anymore..you've ruined every single happy memo i had with you. youu've changed..i know..changed alot..u became more mature,less trusting to others..but if u dun trust wad i said..then..leave. theres too much going on now..too much i hav to take..i dont need u to be there for me..i have other people..ollivia, wan ting, benson, gin, ashley, yan shi,phy, trudy, tracy, celia, yokeleng, mandy, zhixin, abi, rachel, regina..i have so many people who support, encourage, comfort me..and i know they wont leave me..not like you..i've had enough of this..i wont waste my time..looking for you anymore..if u want..then come back yourself..during tha 2 month i chat wif u..i nver regretted it..up till now..i didnt clear my inbox..just coz i wanna see your messages again..u gave me very good memories..sweet ones..but now i think its time for me..to let go..i hope u'll change your mind..if u do...get my number from benson..i can only say this much..whether u wanna forget about the past and start anew or keep clinging on..its up to you..coz i'm moving on..i never once lied to you..neither did i get angry at u..i never did tat...i'm trying to give u another person whom u can come to when you're sad..but if u wont let me in..what am i supposed to do?..thats all i can say...u wanna forgive me or not..your choice..
11:23 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Haiz...these few days i very sad..i really wan cheer ollivia up but idk how...benson and her keep like...wan kill each other like tat..
benson..haiz idk wad to say to u...just dun ask ollivia abt the problem can anot?its nt difficult..i just wan this faster over ok?
not really in the mood to blog right now..
mei dun sad ok?anything just sms me..i'll reply..eventually..lols
ok i go slack liao..ciao..
1:10 AM
Monday, July 6, 2009
haiz..wats wrong wif me..i cant control my own emotions..everything is going..so wrong..
yesterday nite i was like thinking abt something coz i tot wan ting angry at me..then i was like..scratching my neck coz its itchy...then scratch until it bleed i oso dunno...until like 10 mins ltr i then notice half my shirt soaked wif blood
then as usual...the wounds closed up oredi..so weird..now left a scar there i tink..lols..yes i knw i very stupid..sue me...i mean..yea ok im stupid..aww forget it..
today onlined cabal from like morning till 6..sammy around 4+ then afk finish sia..wtf...
lols then i didnt get to pei her..haiz...she go MF wif seena till damn late..walao seena u steal her right?ok nvm u good lols
Wan ting jie..if u seeing this then read..sorry i've been such a stupid ass these few days..u knw..lots of things happen and i havent get over them so yea..gimme time ok..and i clear things wif benson is coz most of the things is from last time de..so yea most is nothing to do wif u so i have to clear wif him instead..
and trudy..thx for clearing it up..so yea..still my mei...ok good
i quite tired now..2 days didnt sleep ler so yea..i go pack bag then sleep oredi..tomorrow finish up ms joyce de graph then throw in her pigeon hole oredi..
sienz..i go liao..ciao
nitex people..
6:24 AM
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Can you name 30 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 30 people. No cheating!
1. Wan ting
2. reyna
3. Ling Jie
4. benson
5. xueyong
6. david
7. darren
8. trudy
9. abigail jie
10. celia
11. Jiamin
12. Manting
13. derrick
14. guan wei
15. evon
16. hui mei
17. celestine
18. xinru
19. miao shan
20. suan eng
21. dillon
22. regina
23. amelia
24. denise
25. mandy
26. faye
27. pei yun
28. kenneth
29. rachel
30. ollivia
THE QUESTIONS:
• How did you meet 10 (celia)
mm..guzheng lor :]]
• What would you do if you had never met 6? (david)
idk idk idk..probably still stuck wif xueyong :X
•What would you do if 20 and 15 dated? (suan eng and evon)
i tell u..comfirm no hope de la...if can i tell u..pigs can fly(wait theres air pork) XDD
If you could marry between 6 and 14 who will it be? (david and guan wei)
WALAO WHERE CAN LA!!BOTH BOY LA
Did you ever like 9? (abigail jie)
cannot lars :] she's my jie :]]
Have you ever seen 4 cry? (benson)
wait..i..think so
Would 4 and 12 make a good couple? (benson and manting)
OI BENSON DUN DA TA DE ZHU YI HORR!! *points middle finger*
Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple? (wan ting and reyna)
omg...my mei and my jie..wows...cannot be la..they les then tell me
Describe 8. (trudy)
erm...slow reaction, abit retarded and cute(i mean seriously..the way she talks)
Do you like 18? (xinru)
my jie?of coz lurh~ ><
Tell me something about 17. (celestine)
no comment..lols..ok ok la..nt so bad
What's 7's favourite colour? (darren)
black..white...same as me XD
What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you? (wan ting)
mmhmm sure :]] love u too jie(only as my jie) :]] hahas
When was the last time you talked to number 15? (evon)
i tink around last few days of holiday
How do you think 19 feels about you? (miao shan)
treat me as a normal fren lor...
What languages does 13 speak? (derrick)
english, chinese and sarcastic-ish
Who is 2 going out with? (reyna)
currently single..i think she crazy about the hot boys in some show though..
What grade is 16 in? (hui mei)
free university..wateva tat is..
What is 5's favorite music? (xue yong)
some christian song bah..
Would you ever date 3? (ling jie)
EEEEE~ UGLYYYY~~~ and im nt gay~~~
Is 11 single? (jiamin)
i tink so bah...idk...maybe yes maybe no
What is 22's last name? (regina)
Tan
Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 17? (celestine)
erm..actually we broke..lols..
Where does 24 live? (denise)
khatib :]
What do you think about 20? (suan eng)
emo kia, rain...OMG ITS RAINING HERE(really)
What is the best thing about 4? (benson)
ok la..seriously..he good at counselling la..give good advice..but he like to use reverse physchology
Is 21 hard-working?(dillon)
dun make me laugh -.-
What would you like to tell 13 right now? (derrick)
at home probably
How did you meet 23? (amelia)
thru guzheng lors
What is the best and worst thing about 5? (xueyong)
Best: he very hyper
Worst: he's too hyper
Are you going to know 12 forever? (Manting)
maybe..probably la..but not close
How long have you known 26? (faye)
1month :]
Who is 24(denise)?
denise?my jie :]
Are you or did you ever date 28? (kenneth)
wth would i wanna date him for?
Do you have a crush on 27? (pei yun)
no....maybe...who knows? *smiles* :]
Would you kiss 25? (mandy)
pls la..of coz wont la >_>
Have you hugged/kissed 22? (regina)
EEE..no thx..gimme free i oso dun wan
Is 29 your BFF? (rachel)
nope..she got jiain..dun wan me liao T^T
What do you hate about 23? (amelia)
she dun hate me i very happy liao
What's your relationship with 30? (ollivia)
my mei :]
3:28 AM
